In The Face of the Future

Music: Interpol

[ Edit: WARNING! ]
I do warn, this is me at probably my Raw.
And i don't care, if any of you dislike this post.. it's not your fucking blog.

as he sat there burning on level one, the stray tender calming of blood arising from his heart into his fists as his body lunges forward to speed through space and eliminate meat one at a time with each distinctive mark engraved into their now exposed spines torn away from their cage we call
"a body". As outside with skies of blood and arise of ash, machines of gears and leather grind and grind burning into the apocalypse of my very own peace, as all the meat is rounded around. In panic and fear, stray from their cherished happiness. To a world where to be feasted upon by rust atop of Metal.

Rage, it fills me so much now.

Maybe I've lost myself, but i sure know I've got a fuck load to say. And to be Honest, Why should i fucking hide myself anymore.

So I've moved from Home, and what a big step that was. I'm cautiously content, but with that pleased I am to where i can Stand almost atop of my Two shoes at only 20. but with that comes a number of things that made me want to shower myself in violence and make myself be heard. Seriously, you would think out of a three bedroom house the master bedroom, the garage, half of the office, the driveway would be fucking enough, but what does it fucking matter to him. There's a flaw in everything and they expose themselves so obviously, covering everything in self gratification wearing a price tag for the
price of " Excuses ". Don't seriously think you both even have had enough to realise how fucking exposed you both are, it's fucking disgraceful. What makes it more annoying is I'm expected to pay the same amount of rent, when i don't hardly get any expenses. I'm not aloud to bring my Speaker's here because of the noise, I'm not aloud to have a share of a Office room because they need it for "work" and "clients" yet they hang pictures of whores exposing flesh, I'm not aloud to have a share of the garage because "he needs it". I can really go on for quite a while, and you know.. if i knew it was going to be like this, I'd still be getting bashed to a pulp by my father
because there is nothing more disgusting than a selfish person who has no remorse for people around him, throwing his expectations on everyone. Because there is no "Me" there is only "You" ?, Correct ?

Work, shits me to tears. I hate customers more than anything, i would seriously have no remorse in taking an axe to their car,.. or to their face. Never, have i hated the Human Race ( "meat" ) so much, their nothing more than being gripped on money with care being ripped from them to be tossed away. Personally i think i have more right than people around me to tell me where i should be spending my money, i earn. It's bad for me to purchase a Video Game, I've worked hard for.. but it's perfectly OK for them to Purchase more expensive/multiple stuff at "ONCE". Fuck, alot is shitting me to fucking tears lately. No wonder I'm so fucking angry and Chain-Smoking all the time.

there's so much in life to offer. i don't want to be buried in people's fucking problems. and that's why I'm growing to not give a fuck anymore. call me buried in too deep. call me an asshole. call me whatever you fucking like.

Bleed where you wish.

my circuits.

Music: NIN - Survivalism (Saul Williams Remix)

im growing.
i've become something new.

and with that,
you'll soon see.