e hënë, 28 janar 2008

hijack my thoughts


filling in the blanks,

Music: Madonna - American Life

whats more reason, in yourself to know deep down
what is want you want in your life, suspend all senses at least, and drop into abyss of questionnaire. Atleast then perhaps even you could understand me, and really i prefer not to tell anyone about my thoughts.. because i know people wont understand at all. It's hard enough when i talk about nothing more than little things and it becomes confusement to those of little construction of imagination and creation.

continuous lineup's and waiting for the same express to pick up on the trampled concrete before the moving sardine bucket begins to fill up to conserve only those of business and silence, where nothing but the slight of bordumm fills the walls and windows and nothing much else.. feels real anymore, but more like a lifestyle. If i wasn't so proud, i would of vomited the first chance i glimpsed upon such degradation of life.

upon lifestyle comes sheer nothing, of the same day to day non changing life. Why am i here. i ask myself. no-one would understand i believe, every step i take and everytime i answer, i just feel such pity and confusement sometimes.

With the world of color, motion, life, fabric, canvas, oils, hair, etc.
the world i follow belongs in color of world and light, and already i feel such pain where i am.

stick it out i say, follow my dreams i say.. its all seems an illusion.
and there's too much confusion. i really want to stand on the surface, look into the mirror.. and follow the catwalk i create in my dreams and make that my reality, and take my extremes to different heights. Because i know, they are going to make Mankind Flourish in all different shades of Glamor and Filth,.

because atleast i know.. This is Me.

e diel, 13 janar 2008




wish
[ poetry ]

Music: Migraine.

meaningless is all that one can be as is.
flagellation, is that what the world is made.
music and art, make for distraction.
when reality heats, conforming is no different
its a chosen path, not by one. but by elsewhere

monsters and demons fall amost the vein
why do they scream beyond leaping lions
when skies die, and nothing is far beyond all that is

life

why must continuation must be processed
data transferring, disfigurement and below all that is sanctioned
to everything
which is, a lie.

apocalypse myself amongst witches
and burn my body below screaming eons
whilst ifrit holds me together, within my soul.

therefore, im more than one being.
no one could understand, streets on fire.
and nothing else than your self-infliction, beyond the pixel stars..

torture is nothing far from less of being one of which burns into light of one meaningless more life and opinion which doesn't account for everything conforming. i cannot find peace... anywhere.