erase my enemies!
Music: Muse - Plug In Baby
Kevin Rudd is now the Prime Minister of Australia.
To be honest, i have no real interest in Politics at all, but i am quite glad i wont be having to put up with John Howard's face all over the News Reports to be Honest, though it does give me a new face to get annoyed by. and somewhat new hope that Australia becomes a better country. I'm really only posting about this because its so the "Topic of the NOW", with EVERYONE!
though lol, its a good thing though because people seem to be really happy with the outcome at least. Good Luck Kevin!
as for myself, I've been very thoughtful over the last few days. Got alot of poetry i plan to put out of my head and share to you readers, as well as some idea's for my tattoo's, plans to pick up my guitar again, drawing, redecoration, new look, different hair, etc. I'm kinda in a plan to just cleanup myself as if I'm in rehab or something, and really its not that bad.. its just that i think I'm at a crossroad where i am ready to make some changes to myself and become more comfortable in my own shell. As really i haven't felt confident about myself for a while.
I'm rather over alot of fabrication and what is expected of me, as well as my own laziness.
Exposing myself alot more could help me become positioned in a workplace more easier, so theres a huge thing to start a new chapter upon. Then again i am so lazy when it comes to serious matters, i find that i just let it blow over or i just wait till it becomes critical. i don't ever want to be like this, im only like this because i was so comfortable in just not caring for anything but one person, and really it was rather stupid of me. I rather don't like thinking i lowered myself to that point, but you do some crazy things in love and life.
a few personal things and problems i find in my own self more so than what are the little things that are bothering me. as i don't feel 100% without becoming more so one with myself, and i think working on my tattoo's more will probably help me alot.
Alot of the discussion i have lately with tattoo's is that people keep pushing in my face that.. " it's going to be there forever ", well isn't that really the point ? i don't want my tattoo's to represent something that isn't me or something that is just going to fade away or something at all beyond what the main purpose is.. which is that i would feel more comfortable with them there, as well as they represent in each detail of their own design and reason they are inked into my bare flesh. Art is Deeper than anything you could imagine, and i wish more people could understand this.. but really, its about opening your mind more so than what people expect or think.
Picking up my Guitar, is something i have been meaning to be doing for quite some time.. and I'm not talking Bass Guitar, i am talking Guitar. I Love playing bass guitar but I'm thinking i want to learn something new, sure enough i know some basics of Guitar but other than that im kinda useless at it and i have'nt played bass or anything really for some time, and i miss just being able to sit down or lay down and just enjoy the music I'm creating from my head. So i might either self teach myself or take some lessons, ..kinda been thinking of taking up singing lessons too, only because i know i have a terrible singing voice and would like to perhaps learn how to train my vocals and see where they take me. I think its time i create some music.
there is an art supply shop up the road that sells cheap canvas, as well as RIOT! Art in knox city and lately i have been on the thoughtful path of buying HUGE Canvas's and just drawing random things like: Ships, Maps, Whales, Solar Systems, Murder Scenes, Geisha's, Helicopters, etc. I would love to be able to hang some of those up in here too, or an apartment i move into in the future. Just to make it more exposed that i live here/there and this is what makes me who i am. Perhaps I'll start posting up some drawings on here soon. as well as some new poetry i have been meaning to throw down onto paper.. or a keyboard. Now is really a time i wanna crunch
just a whole stack of random stuff, and become beyond who i am now and more into me.
Expose and Extend my boundaries i have made myself, over my insecurities.
and really, maybe next time I'll expose some secrets.
