Station Approach

Album of the Now:

This album is just so simply amazing to me right now,
its so around random thoughts in my mind and artistic talent that should be amazed.

not going to write a review as its a two year old album, but ughughugh its just amazing.

flying

gently now.

Music: myself singing.

Under your spell again. I can't say no to you. Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly. Now I can't let go of this dream. I can't breathe but I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough for you. Drink up sweet decadence. I can't say no to you, And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't let you conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough. It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good. And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? So take care what you ask of me, 'cause I can't say no.

come and find me

-> poetry post <-
[ infinate ]

Music: Timbaland (feat. She wants Revenge) - Time

moments never to be decapitated from celluar structre, and peices torn around me, distance surrounds like mist. Nothing i do lets me escape. Love stringing to become my Ruin, as it is. I will wait through the years, and fear through the ignorance. I'll Die letting you know where everything lies deep down, to proove to you the truths. Choke and Gag me, rip at my limbs, laugh at me while i sleep and destroy my house. Crumble me to nothing and find treasure inside, know deep inside me thats where its you. never fly away, and blast me away. War will never stop me, i'll swim to the win. I Dedicate my Existance, to one and one True. Tissue formed to rust, and tears like the shower.. flowers inside me, love.. for one.

Burning like ice, and fear like never.

i dont know how long i can stand this, never ever. nightmare formed reality and what has it done, people lie towards me about things i have done, where one tries to die, over ones self. surely something tells you. that this. is true love.

tell me its not that easy, open your eyes and see me, its not too late. did you never care at all, i liked it much better when you just pretend. i cant escape. spiders nest. i beg for death so much, it cant come quickly enough... Just open your doors, its only me. This is where im going to be, i will be your second best just please.., let me follow the grave.

selfishness

Im so Sick!

Music: Flyleaf vs. The Legion Of Doom - Im So Sick (T-Virus Remix)

so, decisions decisions.
alot is going on behind closed doors and things seems to be surrounded in mystery all over the place. an interesting concept to surround emotions and drama which was never there in the first place. how typical.
I don't have alot of urges at all.
and i fucking love it,
i haven't ate properly for days, i have no intentions, im over alot.
Growing up, heh.. Welcome to 808.

So, time to work on my future and purge alot.
Got alot of requests for some of my own hairstyles to perform on people, so time to experiment and go towards my true calling, of this so called thing thats called 'Life'.
as well as i have began my sketches for some fashion designs, a huge time for focus i think.

because im going to make it, on top.

hourglass

dreamspace

Music: Dave Gahan

Been a bit all over the place this week, but im trying to not let it affect me today and just focus on calm and positive thoughts, it suddenly just got harder. as people i focused around me as positive influence who know im going through alot are seeming more careless than caring, especially when there's so much i want to share and experience with them.. its obvious theres lack of interest in not only me, but what i want to share.

im looking back at this year, and previous years ive looked at them as harsh and destructive experiences, and i still do and will.. but this year has been a year of Experience and Age. I've grown so much this year, and as much as my Dreams still seem so far away and i feel as my Accomplishments will never reach me.. im never going to loose my Faith in myself.
But my Faith in People is Falling Dramatically.

Last few days i feel ive been Dreaming and Thinking alot, Things and Stuff to begin choices and pieces.. maybe its time for me to work on some artwork again. I tried doing some photography but it wasn't capturing what i wanted and i felt i wasn't all there to make what i wanted become a full piece. I think when i want to do something i usually loose myself in it and become one with what im doing exactly, and that wasn't happening today sadly.
I'll try again Tomorrow.

as for my Trip to Sydney, its been set for next week.
even if i went today, i don't think i would be all too good with the trip up there. as i got Really drunk on Thursday night and i think i got alcohol poisoning as im still not very well and i cant remember how much i drank.. all i know is that it was alot and me and Benji went from Collingwood to K-Mart in Burwood (24 K-mart) to look for The Wedding Singer with no luck. lol
and i ate a REALLY bad Meat pie.

Hopefully i feel better soon, but right now.. i feel rather content on my own positivity.