please

violated

Music: Nine Inch Nails

Been a while since i last posted. i guess to say ive been a bit down on myself alot. Things seem to keep repeating. and i just feel i has so little to help me..
it seems that when people want to argue, theres no resolve and its blown up in my face.
or, its my fault.
im selfish nowadays too people say

i really just want these things to stop.
I'm not Happy in the first place.
sigh, even as i type this nothing stops, even at home. theres just so much noise. and raised voices. sigh. This Year is just crumbling more and more i look at myself. and my relationships around me.

there was a time for a very long time i felt complete, i had my family and friends there nonstop and everything was all dreamlike. i do believe it was a dream of mine ,then to awake to what feels like a Nightmare that just repeats more and more.

I don't feel comfortable opening up to just anyone either about my insides.
especially with the constant contact of " Tell me whats wrong ", Clearly the wrong way to address me, especially when they have threatened my self esteem carelessly.
I just don't think i can concentrate even writing this.

i just keep getting interrupted in my own space.





i used to be so big and strong.
i used to be... somebody

im not happy.

Tired of my Life,

Music: The Veronicas

a Lyric post, i never do these. but this song is so amazing and feeling on my exact thoughts as i am now, really.. take a listen of this and go ahead and comment, its just breath taking to me currently. gay eh ?

Hook Me Up

I'm tired of my life
I feel so in between
I'm sick of all my friends
Girls can be so mean
I feel like throwin out
everything I wear
I'm startin over new
Cuz I'm not even there

Sometimes
I wanna get away some place
but I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes
I wanna brand new day
Try to fit in where I don't belong


Hooooooooook hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hooooooooook hook me up
Where should we go
I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough hook me up
Hook me up

I like the lights turned out
The sound of closing doors
I'm not like other girls
who always feel so sure
of everything they are
of what they're gonna be
Sometimes I'm just a girl
who's stuck inside of me (of me)

Sometimes I wanna disappear some place
but I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes
I'm feelin so alone
Tryin to fit in where I don't belong

Hooooooooook hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hooooooooook hook me up
Where should we go
I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough hook me up
Hook me up
Anywhere is good enough hook me up

They're gonna crash and burn
I'm gonna find a way
Nothin left to say
Hooooooooook hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hooooooooook hook me up
Where should we go
I don't even care

Hooooooooook hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hooooooooook hook me up
Where should we go
I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough hook me up
Hook me up
Hook me up